Choosing a Path
If you know me, you know I’ve been on a life altering trajectory for the last 14 months or so. I needed change. Things weren’t working in many facets of my life and I think as I got closer and closer to the big 4-0, I realized I am the only one who possesses the power to shift that trajectory.
There was no Prince Charming coming on a white horse to save me from the mess I had made of my life. I had to come to terms with the fact that I, in fact, wasn’t a princess. I actually didn’t need saving. I was a Queen!
I am the one who decides my life. I have the option of creating a life I truly love. I can absolutely design my days to work for me. I am the one responsible for my future, my finances, my business. If I wasn’t happy, that was on me.
That was both liberating and scary as Hell!
There isn’t a part of my life that I’ve left untouched. I’ve flipped every part of it over with a microscope. I’ve embraced listening to my inner voice and I’ve worked at setting goals, big and small. I am working diligently to live my life with intention, in every way. I am human. I mess up all the time. But, I keep my goals in sight and now realize the importance of taking care of myself, body and spirit. I place time with Diesel at the top of my priority list and I’ve completely restructured my business model.
I am still a work in progress and I always will be, but at 40, I am finally getting my shit together.
I can’t tell you how great that feels.
I had drifted through the bulk of my adult life and I had had success! I know my passion is hair, beauty and fashion and I love that my job has the capability to change how a woman sees herself, feels about herself, and ultimately how she carries herself back out into the world. I believe enabling her to curate some self love contributes to her confidence level and could aid in bringing her closer to her husband and family. I also believe it funnels into her career and other relationships. I mean, when you FEEL GOOD everything is easier to handle, right? If you feel pretty you want your hubby to notice and you want those flirty moments that keep the relationship alive! You are woman! Let me hear you ROAR!
As I journeyed through my 39th trip around the sun I had to make a lot of difficult choices. You see, deciding to live intentionally meant I had to really take stock in what was working and not working in my life. What would bring me joy? What would I have to change to get me there?
No one could have prepared me for the shit storm I was about to create as I unwound everything around me that I just “let happen”, as I drifted through my adulthood. I never considered I could actually choose and curate every morsel of my world. I mean, I don’t want to hurt anyones feelings!! It’s easier just to “go with it”.
Except, it wasn’t working for me. I was becoming bitter, resentful and angry. That’s NOT who I am! My light was going dim and I was miserable on the inside.
Things will continue to change. That IS life. But I think the hardest parts are behind me now. I heard an analogy recently that struck me as it’s so true.
“Surgery fixes problems, but the middle of surgery looks like murder.”
I have felt that so many times the last year, but that is growth. Imagine how a little seed feels when it’s time to sprout! It has to completely come undone to become what it was meant to be.
I am elated to be on the other side of this life restructure! I have so many fun and exciting things ahead of me with Aura! We now have an actual business plan, systems, processes, procedure, financial stability and can provide amazing opportunities for our staff!
I’m just getting started in the right direction but I carry with me the wisdom, the experience and the pain of not having a plan or paying attention…
Thank you all for hanging with me. I appreciate my clients and I enjoy sharing my life with you! Come with me into my next chapter……It’s the one where the Queen finds her voice and her purpose!